let's conspire to re-ignite.

from the luckiest guy on earth

Fri, 19 Mar 2010 07:32:11 GMT

I know you always wonder why people ask about us, why people tease about us, what they ask & tease me about, & why even friends whom I'm not exactly close with tend to probe about us.

You know why?

baby, cause even people around us can feel how blessed, happy & fortunate we are together, it's more of envy & congratulatory greetings that I receive than anything else. Which other guy has his girlfriend sending him off every book in & waiting for his bus to arrive to fetch him back every book out? I don't have to be reminded to feel fortunate though, you know I've always felt like the luckiest guy on earth (:

Thanks silly,
love you always (:

to the best I'll ever have

Fri, 19 Mar 2010 07:02:08 GMT

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

the post dated 010310 is the sweetest ever.
baby, please know that you're my everything too, you're the best I'll ever have (:

jonzx

Thu, 18 Mar 2010 17:08:55 GMT

i chanced upon my conversations with jon from day 1, and this was our very first conversation on MSN dated 03/03/08, and our conversation started from 00:55:27 and lasted all the way till 04:40:50, for around 4 hours, and we had school the next morning. haha! this is a little snippet of our conversation. how could we not have known then?

02:14:23 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
its frigging cold
02:14:24 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
hahhah
02:14:46 [jon             1T04, Online]
u bathed in cold water?
02:14:56 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
no.
02:14:59 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
of course not
02:15:01 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
but its still cold
02:15:14 snowwake@gmail.com [jon             1T04, Online]
hhaha ohh
02:15:18 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
like the hot water can only keep you warm in the shower. the min you off the tap, its damn cold
02:15:19 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
hahhah
02:15:32 [jon             1T04, Online]
haha okay
02:15:45 [jon             1T04, Online]
then u better wear a jacket to keep yrself warm
02:15:54 [jon             1T04, Online]
don't catch a cold
02:16:11 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
hahha

then after making fun of him for being actually caring..

02:19:04 [jon             1T04, Online]
seriously, go hide under yr blanket or smth
02:19:10 [jon             1T04, Online]
drink hot tea!
02:19:19 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
haha.i lazy go downstairs get!
02:19:21 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
nevermind la.
02:19:22 [jon             1T04, Online]
don't fall sick & leave me alone in sch
02:19:24 [jon             1T04, Online]
hahaa
02:19:26 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
haha
02:19:34 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
you havent tell me how was school without me!
02:19:57 [jon             1T04, Online]
it was somewhat
02:20:01 [jon             1T04, Online]
meaningless
02:20:05 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
dont worry! unless i have like competitions or something i wont abandon you to make you go to school yourself! (:
02:20:13 [jon             1T04, Online]
LOLS I'M SO KIND(:
02:20:20 [COLOURFUL TOO! :D When I look you in the eyes, I catch a glimpse of heaven., Busy, STUDYING]
haha. DAMN!

FOR JON JON

Thu, 18 Mar 2010 08:18:37 GMT

HEY BOYFRIEND, PLEASE KNOW THAT I HATE YOU LIKE SHIT NOW BECAUSE I MISS YOU OH-SO TERRIBLY AND I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO COOK MAGGI MEE FOR ME NOW.

you're just too good to be true

Wed, 17 Mar 2010 15:27:17 GMT

jon booked in last night, and although the last weekend was nothing particularly exciting, and it was spent entirely in the comfort of our own homes, it was in my opinion, one of the best weekends ever. and its truly spending quality time.

so he booked out on saturday and i waited for him at the bus stop where he'd alight while his mom, aunty and grandma waited in the car just in front of the bus stop cause i wanted to shelter him to the car since i brought my umbrella! after picking him up we went to sushi tei at serangoon gardens because he was craving for sushi, before heading back to his house. we were supposed to go out to meet reuben and the rest, but we ended up staying at his house talking to his mom and watching the news with her until his dad came home. then we headed to ministry of steak for dinner (and dinner was only 3 hours after lunch omg). then we made our way over to my place where we dropped by the market to get our toothbrushes! actually its more of his toothbrush, because he always stays over so we decided we should just get him one over here, but we bought 2 in the end because we found matching ones HAHA!

we rented home alone from gardens so that he could come over and watch it, and we even bought the microwave heat-up popcorns to eat as we watch but the popcorns were unsuccessful and it got too comfy even though we were lying down on the living room floor because i brought down the pillows and blankets, so i dozed off halfway ):

anyway, we overslept the next morning and got manyyyyyy missed calls from his mom cause he had to go see the doctor. so the morning was pretty much rushed and hurried, but thank god we made it over to the doctors in time. then we headed over to his house and had lunch with his family and his aunties and cousins, before getting busy with the online application forms to fill, and packing his bags for army. then we had dinner again a few hours later (his mom's delicious spaghetti, yummmyyy!) before heading off to pasir ris to send him off again.

and mommy and daddy came back from bangkok last night too and they got me pretty stuff! and best of all, they got my 2 raulph lauren polo tees! red and black, yay! :D

and i'm going the the cc with some particular fat boy. HAHA!

i wish

Thu, 11 Mar 2010 17:10:27 GMT

mommy and daddy left for Thailand today morning, and nig has stayed over at his friend's house tonight, and he's still stuck in the mud.

i wish you were here tonight to talk to me till i fall asleep on your shoulders, to watch simpsons or friends till we doze off. i wish you need not be in camp tonight and that you stayed over with me to keep me company. i wish we were both out prawning especially since its ladies night tonight. i wish we were in the kitchen now cooking instant noodles because we're hungry in the middle of the night. i wish you were here lazing around while i decide and fuss over what to wear tomorrow. i wish you were here to listen to me complain about all thats happened today. i wish you were here to make me mushroom soup when i'm hungry. i wish you were here to take me out for a midnight movie. i wish you were here to ramble on about anything and everything in my ears. i wish you were here to smile and laugh. i wish you were here for me to cry on when i feel like crying.

and i feel like crying tonight because you're not here.

i just want you here.

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 20:24:01 GMT

OH, OH, OH! AND..

i know you'll be reading my blog whenever you book out and i just want you to know, that.
I'M V PROUD OF YOU FOR FINISHING YOUR 8KM ROUTE MARCH! <3

mizz you!

Wed, 10 Mar 2010 02:46:41 GMT

a levels, were not really good.. but, i have decided that i. want. to. retake. my. a. levels. and. go. to. NUS.

YES

eunice has been trying to talk me out of it, but i want to go to NUS. only NUS, so i will do my a's again. its going to be tough but i can do this.

WHERES JON WHEN I NEED HIM??? oh right, on a faraway island called pulau tekong, stuck in some forested area in pulau tekong having this thing called field camp, probably digging the trench which takes an average of 6 hours and he's probably already in his 4th hour into digging, or then again he could be having his breakfast now, eating the ration packs they gave him.

oh, jon and i won another stitch and the very gorgeous kimono hello kitty with the help of my cousin (hahaha, long story) last weekend! and we met reuben, zeming and zhihong for seoul garden and pool afterwards. oh, then mommy and daddy could pick me up from gardens since they were grocery shopping at giant so i went to serangoon with him, and he decided to stay over, so mommy and daddy drove us back home after he got his clothes from home. but we overslept the next morning and rushed over to his house to have lunch with his family. saturdays and sundays are always so packed with activities, and at times its constant rushing about, but its the best days of the week because its family time + time with jon + time with our friends altogether.

hurry book out and take me to eat good food! :D

OK I M GG TO STUDY

so proud of my army boy!

Tue, 02 Mar 2010 18:10:21 GMT

ok as the title suggests, this post is going to be on jon again. yes, i know, "for the umpteenth time" you're thinking, and i wouldn't be surprised if you're rolling your eyes around in your sockets, but..

HE HAD HIS SHOOT TODAY AND HE SHOT 32/32 (FULLMARKS fyi, if you're bad with numbers) AND HE'S TAKING PART IN THE COMPANY BEST COMPETITION TMR! (:

he'll be competing against the better ones from the other ninja platoons and he's nervous. but regardless of the position he comes in, he's already a winner. so proud of him, my marksman boyfriend (:

oh anw, got home later than usual since zm, reuben and i went to kbox to karaoke, which i really enjoyed! we were practically shouting and screaming into the microphones and standing up when we sing an upbeat song. we totally went crazy after bad romance came on. and i know its just the 3 people, but they definitely were able to make it a fun karaoke session!

my heart is like an open highway ♥

Sun, 28 Feb 2010 16:46:58 GMT

i guess its human nature to take things for granted and only learn to treasure when they've lost something.

and what i've lost and learnt to treasure is time. time is wasted when we squabble and argue over matters which could have easily been resolved if we both took a step back to look at things from a broader perspective. now that he's booked in, i begin harping on all the time which could have been more constructively spent. i miss you so much already.

i'm sorry you all have to read these because my boyfriend's in tekong and i can only redirect all my thoughts and emotions over to this space. i'm sorry i'm this cheesy all the time, and i'm sorry that i mention jon in every post. but what you need to understand is this, he is my everything. and as sappy as i sound i miss jon with every bit of my heart, and never once is he out of my mind.

why?

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 17:51:41 GMT

"I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried"

i'm tired, but

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 17:01:45 GMT

"'Its a beautiful thing, the destruction of words. Of course the great wastage is in the verbs and adjectives, but there are hundreds of nouns that can be got rid of as well. It isn't only the synonyms; there are also the antonyms. After all, what justification is there for a word which is simply the opposite of some other word? A word contains its opposite in itself. Take "good" for instance. If you have a word like "good", what need is there for a word like "bad"? "Ungood" will go just as well - better, because it's an exact opposite, which the other is not. Or again, if you want a stronger version of "good", what sense is there in having a whole string of vague useless words like "excellent" and "splendid" and all the rest of them? "Plusgood" covers the meaning; or "doubleplusgood" if you want something stronger still. Of course we use those forms already, but in the final version of Newspeak there'll be nothing else. In the end the whole notion of goodness and badness will be covered by only six words - in reality, only one word."

1984, George Orwell

i think this is why i like language, and literature. because words paints pictures, its like how the magic seem to unfold before my very eyes when i read Harry Potter. i've always likened words to a pencil, a pen or a paintbrush, because they are the mechanism required for expression, and they are always so beautiful. its like how they have this quality in them, in being able to express how we feel, because we can't entirely show how we feel but we can encapsulate our thoughts and feelings in one single sentence.

the above paragraph in 1984 really accentuates the need for all the different words in the dictionary.
and its interesting how happy does not equals to ecstatic or over-the-moon.

breakthrough

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 03:59:29 GMT

i went to bed with the goal of waking up earlier today like about 9am so i can go for a nice jog in the park. and at 9am, i told myself i'd wake up at 10am and i'd quickly change and go jog before the sun comes out at abt 11am. but i was looking for my earphones and the sun was already up by 10.25am so i decided to jog at home instead on the treadmill, but then i was looking for my speakers till 11.00am, and since the laptop was alreay turned on and kay was helping me find the speakers i decided to come online and i started looking through facebook, and now, here i am blogging. and i have not even started my run.

procrastination, much.

jon just finished his 6k route march. so proud of him! (:

i never dared to buy clothings from blogshops, but I JUST BOUGHT A DRESS FROM A BLOGSHOP. ok i know its lame that i'm making such a big fuss over it, but i'm reallyyyyyyy excited! please dont turn out to be a disappointment, it'll be nice!

ok, i'm gonna jog now. aiyaaaaaa.

i want to..

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 08:16:52 GMT

i want to take up so many things. now that i have started on driving lessons and my priority has already enlisted thus becoming my weekend-priority, i actually have time on my hands, that is if i'm not out coaching, shopping or catching up (and MAYBE even jubeat-ing now that i'm introduced to zm and reuben who are jubeat masters and are always trying to challenge me with stakes hoping to win something). i want my time to be spent constructively and i should pick up some skills!

1. take up tailoring/dress-making & tennis (both top priority)
but i can't find a place to learn dress-making and i was looking at fashion designing courses/modules like at raffles design school in bugis, etc but they're all help over a period of 3 years. while it'd be good to actually hold a degree in it, i really don't have the time for it, furthermore they're all mostly night classes and coaching is at night (AHHHHH) so howwwwww? i probably hv to take the kinda short tailoring classes ): whatever course it is, i just need to learn how to sew/use the sewing machine cause i want to make my own dress! where to learn? :o

2. take up french/spanish
always been on my wishlist since idk, sec 2?

3. cooking class?
jon's been trying to psycho me into gg for the courses since we started studying at the serangoon cc and we always see the pin-ups promoting some certain cooking classes (which always consists of food which looks ever-so appetising) so that he gets to eat good food when he books out on the weekends. aiya, he just wants me to cook (something decent) for him when he stays over cause he gets hungry at the weirdest hours.

4. continue (from where i left off, which means skipping only the very extremely basics) learning piano/cello

5. actually maybe photography
cause mommy says she'll get me a SLR if i actually go for such classes. and i want it because it looks so pro, and.. cause it looks pro.

so many things to learn, but i'll only have the morning/afternoon to learn cause i normally hv to be at safra or yishun town ard 3.30pm and 2.30 respectively! howwwww? coaching isn't flexible at all, and its always at the weirdest hours, meaning i can't go out because when my friends knock off i'll be working and when i'm not working they're all at work.

sigh.

on a lighter note, he just smsed me although its 4pm because they're supposed to pack their stuff and bunk but he was done a little earlier. i wouldn't be complaining if he were here cause 24 hrs a day wouldn't even be enough.

so happy together

Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:07:09 GMT

weekends are the happiest times of my life now.

baby booked out yesterday and his ferry arrived at 7am, so his mommy picked him up frm the ferry terminal and then they came over to pick me up before we headed over to his house. then he had his rest and we went to town in the afternoon to look for his mom's birthday gift. we got her this pretty jewellery box which allowed her to display up to 9 pictures on its lid from takashimaya. which was pretty apt because his sister got her earrings, and coincidentally from taka too, but we didnt run into her or her boyfriend while we were shopping although we were there at the same time for pretty long. and we didn't get to go to city hall to meet zm and reuben and their friends for boardgames, but its okay. i'm sure we'll get to play again some time soon.

so anyway we made our way to great world city's imperial treasure for dinner with his family. we met his sister and her bf outside the restaurant but it took us a while to find for his parents because they were inside the room and we didn't know. so it was a chinese new year reunion dinner-cum-early celebration of his mom's birthday dinner. it was such a filling dinner, but a really nice one nevertheless! (:

and today baby and i met for breakfast at macs cause i wanted to eat my happy meals so that i can get the pikachu squirting-water toy which will make me happy, and he got to eat his beef prosperity burger awhile later (at a different branch) before we went to catch little big soldier starring wang leehom (!!!) which was pretty good anyway. then we headed back to his house where his aunties and cousin were there too, to finish up his homework (yah, army also got hw :o) and pack his stuff that he needs to book in. then we rushed for dinner and his parents dropped us off at pasir ris's interchange where he had to book in. they very kindly offered to send me home but i opted to get off there instead cause i wanted to see him in.

met up with junyi after jaryl went in and we had a nice chat over yoghurt! miss talking to her and its been sooo long! but i'm pretty sure we'll meet up pertty regularly from now on! (:

i miss my jon already and its only been a few hours ):

my dearest J,

Tue, 16 Feb 2010 14:53:45 GMT

i just saw the post you posted and i just want you to know that i will always be yours. dont wonder how much longer i'll be yours, and don't be afraid. because i love you regardless of how much time you can spend with me, the number of things you buy me, the length of your hair. i love you all the same, so please do not worry about me leaving you, because i'm certain it won't happen.

you must be wondering why i posted it on public. this is because its my promise to you, and everyone else here can be my witness.
i love you.

<3

you're my saving grace

Tue, 16 Feb 2010 14:22:16 GMT

valentine's falling on the first day of new year is supposed to be a bad thing, and not that i like having it coincide with new years, but there's nothing for me to complain about because even within the limited amount of time we had together, every second was time well spent. we met in the evening and baby surprised me by bringing me to the cinema. he already booked tickets for 'valentine's day' because i told him i wanted to watch it last time and he remembered.

so after the movie we scampered around to look for food, because he was hungry and we had to rush since he had another movie to catch with his family and i had to join my family for prawning! we wanted crystal jade, but it was all closed and we were only left with fast food to choose from so we ended up having long john's silver for dinner. its quite a pathetic new year's day dinner but the company compensated for it all (:

love the gift he got me! although i'd have loved what he planned for more (a handmade musical box). but he gave up after he wasnt able to find the beauty and the beast figurines for the musical box. haha! my boyfriend knows me best, i've always been listening to the 'beauty & the beast' tune when i see those little winding boxes. but he hadn't had the time to print the photos to put into the precious thots box he bought, but thats okay. and coincidentally, he chose the same pictures as those that i've printed for the scrapbook i made him (:

anywayyyyy, he just booked in today at 2pm, and we met for lunch at ajisen's before sending him off at pasir ris mrt. oh, and i saw wee at the interchange while waiting for daddy to buy macs for nig just now at 9pm! (:

Sat, 13 Feb 2010 15:27:17 GMT

i wantttttttttttt. lust; want and not need. i want a husband who'd get me these too!

Fri, 12 Feb 2010 16:30:33 GMT

i finally met baby today. and though we only spent a few short hours together, it was more satisfying than ever. its like a craving, i'm an addict and he's my drug. i've missed him so much over the past week.

so today we went to raffles city to have din tai fung for lunch, tan tan noodles and zha jiang mian (i hv no idea what its called in english) and xiao long bao. then we went over to town and i bought my shorts from mango, and baby got his adidas cap which was meant to be his valentine's day gift (cause i havent had the time to buy). i miss hanging out with him, miss the way he holds my waist and the way he laughs at his own jokes.

absence does indeed make heart(s) grow fonder.

jon

Wed, 10 Feb 2010 20:50:36 GMT

"how're you coping now that jon's in the army?"

i hate having to shrug and smile nonchalantly and laugh it off by saying that things are fine, i'm doing great. when in actual fact, i'm still grappling with the fact that jon isn't here. i miss jon, i miss having him by my side, i miss having him around, i miss not hearing his voice, i miss his laughter, and his lame jokes which makes the class wonder how i'm able to put up with, i miss leaning on his shoulder while watching the television, i miss falling asleep to our late night conversations be it the long phone calls, or when he stays over. i miss all the things that he make me miss about him. and i know he misses me too.

i miss you so much, i love you.

where'd you go? i miss you so.

Mon, 08 Feb 2010 15:27:01 GMT

went over to his house in the morning at 9am after mommy and daddy dropped nig off at st pats, and registered for my provisional driving license. he was only just bathing when i arrived so i played with baby (his dog, i mean. haha so confusing right) and read my book. anyway, we packed his stuff he needed for army, and i helped him write his name on his clothes and things while he taped the hangers (so slack!). haha! his mom said that he was lucky i went early to help him pack! :D oh, then we went for lunch with his mom, aunty, and grandma, before we rushed to pasir ris to meet his dad and we boarded the bus to take the ferry to tekong, where he was cruely taken away from us ): anyway, i toured tekong with his family, before we had our last meal with him before he gets confined in there. aunty and uncle were sooo nice they sent me home though!

oh, during their oath-taking their officer who addresed us, the guests, he assured the parents that their boys would have their own free time on the first night so that they could call them back. and he made them promise him that he would call their parents first before anyone else, and that they wouldn't call their girlfriends first until they've called them. then his mom leaned over (i'm seated in between his mom and aunty) and said, "sorry christine, he has to by orders". HAHA!

anyway, i had my first driving lesson today! and i've drove out on the roads around pasir ris, done a u-turn, and parked the car. exciting!

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 14:35:27 GMT

ao this is what we've been doing before jon got enlisted! we went to the museum together to look at the egyptian exhibits on the 1st feb, visited marina barrage on the 2nd of feb for picnic and we went to fly kite! baby stayed over that night but i fell asleep early since he came back late from his gathering with his friends. ahhhh, anyway we went for dinner with the 04 boys on wednesday night and on thursday we went prawning with his group of friends! i'll let the pictures do the talking!

Tue, 02 Feb 2010 15:26:34 GMT

baby and i caught the "lobster" prawn last thursday while we prawned! hahah, we were both shocked when the rod shook so extremely violently and i had to use such great strength to haul the lobster up. baby's face was classic, and he was actually wary of its pincers since they were huge! so anyway, saturday was pretty nice since we had our class gathering cum party for the newly weds (ms ng and mr peh), and it was pretty awesome. baby and i were made to play the games together with the other couples present.

this post is so overdue! i'm gonna make the eggs for the egg sandwich for tomorrow's picnic! (:

now my feet won't touch the ground

Sat, 30 Jan 2010 03:38:36 GMT

baby stayed over yesterday night and we watched america idol and half of america's next top model together before we went to talk to mommy (in the middle of the night) and have japanese steamed cakes. then we sat on the sofa couch and talked and watch the tv together till we dozed off. mommy woke us to go up though so we could sleep more comfortably on the bed. i like my life this way. it feels nice having him by my side, and i wish things remained this way between us.

so anyway, we went over to his house today afternoon and we made custard cream puff, and we planned to do fruit tarts and the greedy one even wanted to make egg tarts but aunty reminded us that we only had 2 hours, and she told jon he was overly ambitious. HAHA! anyway, after making the cream puffs, she drove the both of us to ang mo kio mrt station so that we could take the train to bukit gombak to meet his friends. played laser quest with reuben, zm, danny and jon, and we all had funny names in the end because of stupid zm. so reuben became ben (meant to pronounce in chinese), zm became AC (haha, because he called me AH), danny became danng because zm wrote the last letter wrongly, and jon was called the cui guy. HAHA, it became all too hilarious when the laser quest counter guy called our names out, and we all took about 4 seconds to think who it was before responding. jon's was the most hilarious. laser quest was soooo tiring, having to run non-stop for 10 minutes around in the dark. but i didn't come in last anyway! jon and reuben were in the same team, and zm, danny and myself were on the other. there was this period of time danny and me were shooting each other non-stop until zm came over and told us we were in the same team, reuben chased jon to the basement only to find that they are on the same team.

albert, leon and victor came after we finished the first round and when we wanted to play more, we found out that some others have booked the remaining slots, so they didn't even get to play. then we decided that we should go play bowling but in the end we didn't manage to get lanes, but we ended up playing cards instead, so it wasn't bored or time wasted. we only left at 10 plus, for ang mo kio to have dinner/supper and we only left at 12am, so daddy picked baby and me up from gardens. i only got to reach home at 2.30am though!

last week with baby before he enlists!

<3

Mon, 25 Jan 2010 19:13:24 GMT

sunday, jon and i both went to take our level 1 rock climbing course and we were so tired by the end of it we had to get daddy to pick us up and drive us back home. but it was all worth it, now that we got our license to rock-climb, we can do it anytime. and better yet, we can bring others to climb as well only that they can't belay. so dad drived us back and we got jon his facebook account (finally right), before he completely died on the sofa in the living room. even mommy and daddy could tell how tiring it was!

jon doing an over-hang.

anyway, cheston's belated birthday party was awesome.